I did it. I just gave up procrastinating and did it.

I read what I wrote.

And it did what I thought it would. It hurt. I expected it to hurt. That’s what it did.

I know I need to keep doing it. Keep facing all those feelings… namely the anger. I have to get angry right. I have to get angry and upset. I have to feel the hurt. I have to feel.

Does that mean I have to like it, no.

I just need to do this for me. I need to do this to get past whatever is holding me back. I need to be a better me. I need to learn how to get past the fear and anxiety from abuse. Maybe I just need to bring it. Just do it and get it over with.

Sounds easy, right?

Yeah… I don’t believe it either.