I had to miss group last night because I had a huge headache. It wasn’t quite a migraine, but it was close. So, I got off a little easy. The pain in my head was intense.

So, I feel both relieved and bad because I missed a meeting.

There’s not much that can be done about that though. You just have to keep on working with what I need to do.

But besides dealing with the memories and processing them, I also need to tackle my fears. That means that I need to be more social.

Most people who know me know that I’m not exactly a social person. One might say that I’m slightly phobic of social interactions. I’ve always been a shy person, and I’m still dealing with that issue to this day. I don’t have a lot of friends or even make a lot of friends because I’m scared of talking to new people I don’t know.

I’ve been working on coming out of my shell a bit. It just doesn’t feel like I’m going anywhere with it. I’m not a social butterfly. I know that, I accept that.

But now I need to force myself to be more of a social butterfly. I need to force myself to be out more and meet new people. I’m just not sure how much of an impression I’m making on other people.