I hate this… I hate feeling like this. I wish I didn’t have to deal with trigger effects.

I know, it’s not exactly something that can be controlled. It’s not like it’s something that I asked for or sought out. If I did, it wouldn’t affect me to this day.

But every time I’m triggered in this manner, it gives me a negative feedback loop where I don’t know why people like to be around me. Is this rational thought? No, not really.

It is something that I have to deal with though. I can’t just let it consume me.

More importantly, I have to figure out how to get past all this anger when it comes to people being more inelegant in their speech.

I know what the last straw was. Is it something that I think I can talk to the person about? No, not really. After all, I have problems talking about these things to most people.

So, instead… I’m gonna work this out.
One day at a time, one breath at a time.

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