If there were one word that I could use to describe where my life was now, it would be massive amounts of change. I might even say that it’s too much change to deal with at one time. I feel like there are massive changes happening. Some are for the best, some probably aren’t. That’s the nature of change.

I have had one massive change in my life. One that both enriches and limits things in my life.

I’ve lived my entire life with stomach problems. I have a stomach condition where I almost always maintain a certain amount of nausea. My mom has plenty of stories of how I was given medication for my stomach when I was a little child. I have spent years and had countless different tests. I’ve had a colonoscopy, upper GI. I’ve had numerous blood tests. We haven’t been able to put a finger on this problem.

I’ve even tried an elimination diet, but it was cut short by an allergy test.

Turns out, maybe it was cut too short.

It turns out, maybe the problem all along has been that I’m gluten intolerant. It was that simple… and that difficult.

Since I’ve spent a week not eating any gluten. In that week, for the first time in my life, I have just felt full. I haven’t felt full and sick, I’ve simply felt full. I feel as though I have more energy. I feel revitalized in a way that I couldn’t have imagined.

It’s also a bit heart-breaking. There’s a lot of things that I really wish I could have. I want sourdough bread. I want ravioli and tortellini. I want to be able to go to a restaurant and not worry if what I’m ordering is going to have gluten in it.

So, I way the positive changes versus how I was feeling before.

It seems that I can go on missing those things. There are ways around eating those. There isn’t a way for me to take all these positive physical changes and compare it to not being able to eat certain foods. The truth is, I’d rather feel better. After 32 years of being sick, it’s wonderful to finally not feel sick.

If only all the other changes could yield equally positive results…

Well, only time will tell.

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